Higher, for polleekin

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Title: Higher
Recipient: polleekin
Character: circus artist Ruby
Rating: SFW (mildly suggestive attire)
Media: digital art/prose poetry
Warnings: N/A
Summary: she dreams her vessel fearless. an artist, big top, high in the sky (no belly to the earth, not this time) she dreams her vessel powerful--a girl, five feet, heavy with muscle--a coma, why?--how?--she dreams wild things, wilder and wilder as the summer goes on because she is so



lonely

Notes: The AU where Ruby chooses Sam over Lucifer--and her vessel, in its past life, was a circus artist.





in truth, she misses sentience. she misses the vibration of a soul in its body, now her body, a soul finding terror as it kicks out, finds nothing but smoke. a demon can possess a body but true possession requires a soul it requires more than this one has to give (and are you happy, sam?)

when ruby dreams (because ruby dreams, because ruby sleeps because sam does, she gets bored when he sleeps, she tries it--she likes it) she imagines a soul inside her body, the life it led, the life she took. she dreams herself a higher thing, she dreams her vessel fearless. an artist, big top, high in the sky (no belly to the earth, not this time) she dreams her vessel powerful--a girl, five feet, heavy with muscle--a coma, why?--how?--you fell, didn't you, you fell so i could

fly


she dreams wild things, wilder and wilder as the summer goes on because she is so

lonely

without a soul, nestled in these tissues beside her. she is so

different, sam, i'm different from any demon you've met before, because I'm going to

help you

i'm going to help you, sam, because i am so

lonely

and i dreamed in white that i would save you,

sam.